YAY!! bilal won! i was so excited when i heard. really looking forward to seeing what gullz he and salman khilaofy :D

i wish i could talk to my brother. sometimes its when you're in the deepest shit possible that you realize that you're too far away from the one person who can help you...

i've made many mistakes in life. over the last one week, i discovered i'd made another one. looking back, it's like a foresaw this happening. as if, i needed to do it to prove something, or destroy something.

anyway - i havent been able to write for a few days because i havent been able to sort out all the stuff going through my head. wish i could go back in time and change some stuff that i did. wish we got that chance. made a mistake - jst press rewind and go fix it. would make life much more simple, or would it. that's the plot of "butterfly effect" i think. :D

anyway, xeb was right. friends do care about you. it just takes one weird blog post for them to come to help. my friends thought i was going slightly nutty and took me out to lunch...love 'em to bits. i never really know what to expect of them though. one minute they're there, the next they aren't.

right now, i wish i could go back to my childhood - somehow i've always thought of that as the happiest times i had. i don't know why - they weren't particularly happy.

spell your name backwards: adin, if you think about it, it's a-din! lol!

have you ever had a song written about you: nope..loser music society!!

what song makes you cry: none, i get depressed when i hear "it's a wild world" though...

what song makes you laugh: papi chulo- urdu version

height: 5 feet 7ish

hair color: brown/black

piercings: ears

tattoos: have to save up enuff money to get one...!!

Right Now . . .

what taste is in your mouth?: chowder soup...

whats the weather like?: cool summer night...

how are you?: tired...

get motion sickness?: erm..no, i think

have a bad habit?: of course :D

get along with your parents?: yep, pretty cool parents...

have a current crush: erm...crush? i do think someone's woah-hot! but not a crush...

have a big regret: not 1 big one, some small ones...

FAVOURITE:

tv show: lost

book: to kill a mockingbird...

non alchohol drink: orange juice...

alchohol drink: i live in pakistan and am a hostelite! where would i get the alcohol from?

things to do on the weekend: chill out with friends...now that its summers, we can go to the park again...yay!!

Have You Ever . . .

ran away from home: nope...pretty cool parents...

snuck out of the house: nope - same as above applies...

ever gone skinny dipping: nope...

skipped school: hehe...i'm in college, of course...

had children: nope...

been in love: i don't think so...

been hurt?: yeah...

Random . . .

have a job: no...

if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: purple...

the next CD you're going to buy: N.E.R.D, can't find the songs anywhere online..

what makes you happy?: hanging out with friends, and playing with dogs :D

When/What Was the Last . . .

you got a real letter: 2 years ago i think..

got an email: a few minutes ago...

thing you purchased: a lemonade

kissed: which type?

you were depressed: my friends think i'm depressed right now...

When/What Comes to Mind When You Hear...

car:rickshaw (the car for hostelites!)

murder:on the dance floor

cape:cod

penis:hehe

cell:phone

shoe:box

fun:ction :D (that must be the farewell talking!)

crush:heart

music:bob (battle of the bands)

chalk:cheese

courtesy: tree-elf

i wonder if anyone would notice if i just gave up. stopped writing my papers, stopped studying, stopped leaving my room, stopped getting out of bed, stopped caring. definitely my family would protest when my grades dropped - but their reason for doing so would be the fall in grades and not the emotional crap i was going through...my friends would worry, but only because they'd stop seeing me on campus.

i seriously wonder!

what would it be like to wake up one day and not get out of bed. not care what the world thinks, not give a shit about the fact that there is work to be done or people to be met.

don't get me wrong, i'm not going to do that - i have too much work i'm responsible for to be able to do that.

but i wonder!

would i live a better life that way? if i had the resources to not have to worry about my survival, would i choose that path? sitting in front of a t.v all day may seem boring but with the 100+ channels they offer now i'm sure it can't be that bad. i might even get a chance to catch up on the bold and the beautiful, not that it has changed much from the last time i saw it, a good couple of years back.

anyway, i'm drifting. i'm looking out of the window and i know that there's a lot that i need to get done. but this really small part of me wants to give up. stop! stop right now. call home, tell them i give up. but i wont. why? i seriously wonder why...

nothing worth happening ever happens...
why is that so?

...

*sometimes people say the most unexpected things...*

"hey baby.....i think the time has come to realize that you are not young nida anymore ...but a very mature, strong willed and more smart individual than i ever will be.....hence i have decided to start treating you like one..." a note from my big brother

muftaa!!

the people, and products, from nestle made their annual visit to lums today.

although the information session is usually attended exclusively by the mba's and graduating batch, the central courtyard always turns into a battle ground due to the tea being served there. the entire hostel population (those on campus atleast) and some pseudo-hostelites (read: day-scholars with nothing better to do) always manage to show up right on time for it to be served and make things bad for the rest of us (those who've been waiting for almost an hour!).

anyway, i have a better game plan for next year...something that'll help me get the "only for display" items (including chocolates)... :D

oh yeah, sakina rocks! she managed to sneak out a whole cake!!

first gbm...
all i can say is - memories of legislation at ipm came back to haunt me while i was listening to the debate about 3vps/4vps or 3dept/4dept!!

in case someone was wondering what the people inside the elevator went through, there's a first hand account here
:D

the funniest thing happened today...and it got me thinking quite a bit...

my university has an elevator for the library building, but this being pakistan, it's not very dependable. so today, i was standing near the elevator, when somebody set off the alarm from inside it. apparently, something like 10 people got stuck in it!! now, that elevator, is tiny! so 10 ppl inside it at one time is not a good thing...even if it is moving! and here it was, stuck between the 1st floor and 2nd floor.

anyway, some consciensous final years called the gaurds, extremely worried that the people inside might start panicking. and there we are, yelling reassurances through that thick door, running around, calling every maintenance person on campus...when we heard what can only be described as laughter from inside the elevator. the people inside, it seemed, were having FUN!!

i'm amazed everyday by what people in this university are capable of...but this takes the cake. here we are, in the middle of exams, with people going nuts if the cashier at the cafeteria takes one extra minute while returning their change coz "they have to study!"...and these people were enjoying a situation that can at best be described as claustrophobic! ...

i didn't stick around to see how long it took to get them out...am guessing it couldn't have been longer than another 15 minutes...but that laughter proved they would be fine.

it reminded me, we can only control so much of what life throws our way. the rest of the time - it's best to just have the best time possible, hopefully - everything will work out itself...

yay!! i won!! its this really weird feeling. standing there..."and the LCP 05-06 is..." and the next thing you hear is your name!! and then the cold water - followed by even colder coke! hugging everyone, not knowing whether to maintain composure or start crying..

it's somewhat a scary feeling - coz once the adrenalin rush is over, you're left with the knowledge that now, you're it!! there's much higher expectations...much more that needs to be done...stuff that needs to be planned..

however - right now, i'm just happy...

this is where i've always wanted to be...and i'm there...somethings going my way...!!

today, when i was sitting in the bus, waiting for the other passengers to be seated. i realized that we often look through people. ever wonder why the people who look happy, are happy. or why those who look sad, are sad? today, i did.

see, today - there was this lady who looked like she'd been crying. and i was wondering why? not my place to be doing that maybe, but got me thinking. you never know what the stranger sitting next to you in the bus is going through in life.

Sonnet 17

Pablo Neruda

I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose, or topaz,

or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms

but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,

risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;

so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,

so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,

so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

IF

R. Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,

Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,

And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;

If you can meet with triumph and disaster

And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,

And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings

And never breath a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;

If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;

If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -

Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,

And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

hmmm...

wonder if this email thing really works :D

jst found this on the web...

nice to know we're up there in the network! yay...!!

"Students from Pakistan participated at several conferences in India and gained the necessary skills to run the organization."<= that's us!! :D

so here i am, awake! went to sleep around 9 pm like a good little kid and as a result, am awake at 2. the machar's are making life hell, mortein coils don't seem to be doing the trick. madiha is on the phone/msnger/wrking on an assignment (a multi-tasker, if i've ever met one!).

khokha seems highly tempting, naureen is asleep, can't seem to get the bandee from the exorcist out of my head, don't think i can walk to khokha alone.

so am writing, feeling like shit! sleepy, bitten all over, hungry, bad headache - the works...
will go and bug someone, maybe someone will have a solution, cant' think too well myself, am that tired!

sarri of the day...

**near the khirkee's outside the store**

person # 1: oye, it's raining!
person # 2: no, no - dude, we're so hot that God had to turn the sprinklers on!

:D

nobody would think a tv show could make one so emotional, yet thats exactly what F.R.I.E.N.D.S does. everytime i watch the show, or show that features the cast, i'm instantly reminded of all the times we've sat in the dorms, waiting for the new episode to come out.
me and naureen, copying them onto the pc - screaming when it wouldn't - with our food by our sides...seems like light years ago...
anyway - summary: miss the show, boo hoo! :D

khekhekhe - chk this out...
funniest thing i've seen all day...

yay!! got to sleep last night! ...
weird day today - had fun though. sometimes weirdness makes a day more interesting - u never know what you'll run into...

umm...very eventful day (in a completely weird way) ...

met some old "friends" from school! hmm...weird! anyway - lcp applications were posted on @.net ... am worried! very normal...

student council campaigning under way...that too is going really weirdly...

am going home this weekend - finally, some time to myself..!! cant wait to meet api and zainab!!

ever felt like running around, with arms wide open, swishing a dupatta through the air while listening to the song "aao naa" from that nameless movie that had ash/vivek in it?

or is it just me? :-O

am still up...

urrrgh! am still up - jst cant seem to sleep..might as well get some work done

seems like any lallu-panju concert can be fun as long as you have friends around you, and apparently ali zafar is much better then just lallu-panju :)
admitted that the music wasn't live, but the guy knows how to sing - plus he has stage presence (whatever that is :D) ... sang some oldies which none of my rock loving friends knew about, but had fun overall..

random thoughts, random songs...haven't been able to sleep all night - once again! think i need to find a solution...getting irritating..

have the LCP application due today - have been workng on that...atleast some good came out of me staying awake..also have math queezzz...am prepared...almost! yay!! got a 9.5 in the 1st one...stupid mistake thee...

also have stall for t-shirts up again...hope we hit 200..

aur kuch...not thinking soo!!

is the ali zafar concert worth even going to? jst stole the pass madiha had claimed (no, no - it's minee!!) ... she being in isloo won't be able to make it to concert ... i should feel less guilty (stupid conscience)

If suddenly someone were to rush up to you

And say "Hey, I know your face."

Would you shy away or embrace your past

With arms spread-eagled and a cup of coffee?

It gets lonely here in the letter-bin

Dark and smelly at times,

But mostly

Lonely

Bordering on insanity

A pinch of salt

A chance of rain

A deck of cards

A cigarette

But nothing more.

Unless, dear me,

But-of-course!

Arms are spread-eagled, coffees are shared

In cups that are destined to empty,

(Fill with ash, perhaps, if the night draws long

And old habits are resurrected).

Unless bottles are popped, a whole lot else

Champagne is served, sir, until further notice

You may now blow your cosmic bubbles and screw the cat.

(She's contemplating never coming back again).

But when the ice shoots out

Like frozen mushrooms

And the tin roof becomes more than just hot,

When colours bleed into one another

And cocoa is strewn in angry puddles,

You know the cat's gone without being screwed.

- Taimur Malik (from, hub)

2008...

the freshie's are a great lot...very fun! much much better then the 2007's... :)

had an interesting time on the ride to the "sutta" place...thanks ehsan - u da best! coincidentally, am listening to "cold dead night" ... :)




just a random thought

lums chronicles...

got the feeling from the few people i talked to that maybe my "honest criticism" in the lums chronicles hadn't gone down well with the musicians...

just wanted to clarify, i had a great time at the concert...however, it could've been much better!! i mean, i know you guys, i've been hearing your jams almost every day since lumun - so i was a little pissed off at circumstances. but i'll be there, front and centre at the next concert too. please feel free to comment though :)

btw, another clarification for those who wonder - i'm not a groupie and have no desires to be one, coz, "groupie's are sluts - they sleep with the band!" :D

bye boys :P

my sharona...

have actually managed to stay up all night yet achieve nothing - in an effort to feel "more" cool, i went to the khokha (i DID do something on saturday night!)

came back, wasted some time and am now trying to figure out how accurately the "boys" played "my sharona" at the welcome...!!

anyone need any jars of beads counted??

..

am still working on @ application - need to do a quick khokha run though. sorely missing naureen...no one to talk to on the long walk there...

save tonight...

am unusually happy tonight. have spent the last 5+ hours on the same website, updating blogs. on a saturday night no less!! what a sad existence!!

chulu bhar pani main doob mar nida rasheed!

anyway...song of the day (or atleast the last 5 hours) has been...

la...la...la...la...la...
now that i've lost everything to you
you say you want to start something new
and it's breaking my heart you're leaving
baby i'm grieving
and if you wanna leave take good care
hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
a lot of nice things turn bad out there

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile (yeah...)
oh baby, it's a wild world
i'll always remember you like a child, girl

you know i've seen a lot of what the world can do
and it's breaking my heart in two
coz i never want to see you sad girl
don't be a bad girl
but if you wanna leave take good care
hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile (yeah...)
oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
i'll always remember you like a child girl

la...la...la...la...la...baby i love you.

but if you wanna leave take good care
hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile (yeah...)
oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
i'll always remember you like a child girl

baby, it's a wild world - mr. big

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gobbeldygookdibblydoofoo!!

"adieu" is such a strange word isn't it...wonder what they were thinking when they came up with it! anyway - it's that time again, when the seniors have to be given the "farewell" (another weird name since they're still around for atleast another month afterwards). a rather sad (if you really think about it) occasion.

i, for one, am really going to miss this batch. not just because they had all the hot(!) men or because they made the best TA's...but more because they - despite the raggings, bullyings, dissings - were there through it all: the bad bad grades, heartbreaks, planning welcomes/farewells, studying for exams, writing papers, moving in and out of hostels, always with a smile and a smart idea to share

i'll also miss these guys because with their leaving lums, 2006 will become the seniors, and we'll be expected to fill their shoes. big shoes to fill me thinks... you're wondering, why? well, the 2003's were the kings!, why? because they had some the best sportsmen (i'be heard), musicians, students. the 2004's were great coz they just seemed to be fun, always playing patta's, smoking, playing volleyball. but the 2005's: they have the brains, and the extra curriculars, but add to that the fact that they are jst great ppl to hang out with. though i wonder if every batch feels that way about the batch ahead of 'em...

so - a couple of months, and we'll be seniors! seniors...with three batches behind us expecting greatness...i wonder how that'll feel...